"I Got This"

Not sure how many noticed I didn't blog last week...that was on purpose.  I was too angry to blog.  I was only down another .2 on the WW scale for an official weight of 201.2.  I had fully expected to meet my 10% last week and was fuming that I hadn't.  As the leaders and coaches always say, when you don't get the results you had hoped for, it is time to look back on your week to see where you could have done better.  Well, as you all know I HATE tracking, so there is no tracker to look back on besides what is in my head, so that is what I did.  As I sat in that meeting, steaming, I forced myself to reflect on the week.  My eating was not unusual, but my activity wasn't as high as it should be.  So I resolved to be active 5 days a week...and to allow the treadmill to control what I do.  What that means is, rather than just manually adjusting the treadmill, that I submit myself to it's programs (it has like 12 or 15 built in) and just do it!  So I made the treadmill my trainer and started with program one, each subsequent night doing the next program, each one becoming a bit harder.  Program 4 from last night had me jog for a bit which was good as I know a bit of running shakes the weight of me.

So today I weigh in and the scale reads 200.  The gal weighing me in looks at me and says "So close!" and I was like "Close??" Then I gave her that what-you-talking-bout-willis look and called her attention to my card. "I weighed 222 when I started, 200 is 10% of that!"  She laughs and says "It is!  Congrats!  I meant you are close to not being in the 200s!"  So we had a laugh and she congratulated me some more and I went to sit and wait for the meeting to begin.  The leader kicked things off with rewards as she always did, and when she asked for 10% I raised my hand and her praise was wonderful, along with the rest in the room clapping for me, I really was touched and I finally have my lil keyring to hold my WW charms!  I looked at the one charm I have been holding for TWO YEARS and slid it on first with a grin.  Sometimes she asks members who hit milestones to share, but she didn't today as the meeting had started late. I am glad she didn't because I am not sure what I would have said.  I know if I was built for tracking I would probably have met this goal long ago, but my advice to any who do this is that it is truly a lifestyle change and there is no time frame on when you can do that.  You have to do it in your own time and be patient with yourself in order to succeed.

So with that goal met it is time to create another.  I have been thinking about this for the past few weeks, knowing my 10% was right around the corner.  I am not so sure I want my next goal to be a number on the scale.  According to medical guidelines a female for my height should weight about 150 pounds.  I have not weighed that since I was 16!  Then there is my wedding weight...170.  I felt good at that weight but still had concerns about my body.  So rather than focus on a number I have decided to make my major "problem area" my target.  My legs.  I have never liked their shape and weight loss alone isn't going to change that.  Since my husband has experience weight lifting, I have asked him to outline for me what I need to do to sculpt my legs.  I have already made peace with the fact that muscle weighs more than fat so I will see the scale go up more than likely...but in the end things will settle out and I will have legs I don't feel I need to cover all the time.  Once I have sat down with my husband to outline what must be done, I will make my new WW SMART goal!

I wanted to thank those who take the time to read my blogs and leave me notes on Facebook.  Your virtual support means the world to me.