I am not resentful...was Garfield resentful?

Ok...so I have NOT been motivated to write.  I have been caught between stressed and angry that I still have to do this...and on my Spring Break no less.  I have been doing a lot of self talk...the rational side of my mind telling the angry side of my mind that anger will get me nowhere.  That I must write and finish so that I can achieve what I have wanted for so long.  That I am worthy of National Board certification and so very close to it now.  That to give up now would be more aggravating than anything.  I don't want to spend my days agonizing over this anymore.  I just need to write.  So while I have toyed with taking down the previous post in case the National Board police see it or something, I am going to leave it up, but not post the rest of my entry in such a detailed way.  Why not take the previous post down you ask?  Well I like it.  It is part of the picture of my frustration and struggle to achieve National Board certification.

So I finally starting writing to the second part today.  I didn't do it yesterday because I had a lot going on and didn't want to think about it.  I had a wisdom tooth pulled, my son had a cavity worked on, we has soccer practice, I had various other house related things interrupt...so ya, no entry writing.  I find I enjoy the late evenings to write when everyone is asleep so I can just write without interruption.  So here I am again at nearly midnight, working on part two of my entry... Planning and Teaching Analysis ...  YAY!

I carry around a binder with my notes and such on this entry.  Often times I don't even look at it while I am out.  But I have odd childhood flashbacks when I do this.  For some strange reason I recall a poster from my youth...a silly poster sold either at a book fair or from a book order form...I may have even had this poster...but it is Garfield the cat, with a book on his head, and the printing on the poster said something like "I learn by osmosis."  Perhaps you know the poster of which I speak, perhaps you even owned it.  But I feel like Garfield the cat with the book on his head...maybe if I carry around my National Board binder long enough, a fabulously written, national board certifiable entry will be produced by osmosis.  I imagine me instead of Garfiled...National Board binder on my head..."I write cohesive, insightful reflections on my teaching practices by osmosis."

[After I wrote this I went to see if I could find the poster online and I did!  So here it is for you to enjoy if you didn't know what I was talking about!]