I WILL Win...

Ok so I had hoped to get this writing monkey off my back by the end of my Spring Break.  Sad to say it still clings to me.  It seems this writing project is a deep seeded battle raging inside me.  I have made peace with it on this last day of my break and I have a new deadline.  I MUST be done with the writing of this my April 9th.  That day I have my last support meeting and I could really benefit from having a complete paper for the support providers there to look at and give feedback on.  I am also taking an assessment center exercise on reading, so one the writing is done I must focus on doing all the reading and reflecting I can on best practices in teaching reading and assessing reading issues for students in grades 3 through 7.  Thankfully I can take my assessment center exercise as late as June and I can pretty much schedule it when I like.  It is easily the less stressful of the two things.

So in the end I have learned something about myself.  When I really don't want to do something, I REALLY don't want to do it, so forcing the writing only stressed me out.  I know I need to do it, I know I can do it, but I have to do it in my own time.  Now I realize doing something in my own time AND having a deadline can be problematic.  But I am hoping that with the first deadline missed and a new deadline in place before the REAL deadline (April 15th) that I can conquer this and crank out some writing.  I am going back to teaching tomorrow so that will give my days more structure, but after that I just need to be able to do as I will, writing where and when I feel I can.  I let various things stress me, and really it is my own fault.  So I am giving myself license to do what I will in order to get this done.  I will not fail.